The Blog of Mark Devin

Lately I've been in the process of clearing out a lot if things in my life, and coming clean on other things

Ever since my Uncle died on Tuesday, I've wondered about my life with overwhelming sobriety. There seems ti be a lot of baggage in my life right now and a lot of past regrets and mistakes I'm still trying, or have tried, to fix. Like my Relationships for example: friends, past loves, current loves, hopeful loves, wants, dreams, expectations; and I'm starting to wonder if it's time to let go. Even if it means losing a friend, hurting my integrity to improve my life in the long run, or burning a bridge.

Although hurting my integrity may be a little rash to do, they're are people waiting for me, expecting me to crash; or just hurt from my mistakes already and wouldn't be surprised if I would do it again. But this time, it's different. This time it's time to be a little selfish intentionally because i need to move forward in life. It's time for me to start taking risks.

There are important things that are a rye before the start of 2008. And I'm a little worried about the outcome of where things will end up. So if you read this and wondering why i'm gone, it's because i'm on another journey: to find love, peace, prosperity, friends, life, it's time to shed my skin.

Maybe people who won't see me will see me soon, maybe they won't. But I'm afraid that some lights look dim. I'm going to step out in faith and take a risk. Maybe even a big one. To look out at sea, take a deep breath, exhale, and set sail and let the winds of the sea carry me to the end of my square earth at the end of the horizon. I don't know if it's a mistake, and to tell you the truth, I won't find out till I get to the other side. I'll either find regret with cursing or the promise of blessing. I love you all.

It'll be a slow process though. and if those who read this are my friends and I haven't talked to you in a while anyway, call me. I haven't left you guys yet. I still need a partycrasher. But to whoever reads this that knows who I am, I give you every right to be upset with me, but please do not be bitter. I feel this is the best thing and I know my heart is being led by God. It's time to spread my wings and fly again like the mockingbird I am. But I'm not moving but my motives are shifting and my heart is maturing.

If you want to keep tabs on me, don't worry. I'm still going to be updating my Facebook or Myspace all the time.

This is my December.

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